As I creep into this retrospective mood , it's difficult to narrow down the thoughts in my head .
It feels sort of dark . Anything but W H IM S Y . But hello 2 O 12 . This year feels a bit different .
New year .
New priorities .
My life is happening now .
Right now .
I have all of these visions . Yet so many obligations .
So many inspirations , yet so little order to them all .
I see all of these things + I want to have them .
I see all of these people doing things + I want to do them .
And in all of this madness , I have realized that I need to remind myself :
I don't have to do what everyone else is doing .
I don't have to dress this way . Or write that way . Or have to as many blog followers as others . I don't have to be selling my goods off of store shelves . I don't have to be a featured artist to feel like what I DO matters . Or that I ' ve succeeded at something . Anything .
Furthermore , from the lips of Guillaume Apollinaire :
Now + then , it's good to pause in our
PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS
+ just BE HAPPY .
And here I am , PURSUING happiness in parts of my life ,
but giving up HUGE sources of happiness in other parts .
Truth be told , I cannot blog forever .
I have loved taking time to write my thoughts here + share my inspirations here .
But its become an obligation I feel compelled to uphold + I can ' t anymore .
So from now on :
I can see a photo + love it . And not have to post it .
I can see ANYTHING + love it . And not have to take a photograph of it .
I can create something + love it . And not have to sell it .
I can read words + love it . And not even have to write it down .
I can hear a song + love it . And not have to play it over + over again .
And that makes me HAPPY .
So I will continue to S IN G + WR I T E ( in all C AP S + SP A C ED OU T i suppose ) + DRE AM + S EW + C REA TE .
And , lovely friends , I will most certainly LO V E TO D A Y .
Love it for everything it holds .
Don't go hoping you're going to love tomorrow .
Love THIS moment + live this moment .
Be present .
Let go .
+ free .
XO X O Goodbye for now . Until we meet again .